ME - The Human Mood Ring

If I ever doubted it before, it's official now...I'm not an I-don't-care-even-if-I'm-just-acting person. I'm very much a wear-my-feelings-and-heart-on-my-sleeve person. This may make me bad at poker and especially bad at hiding what's going on with me, but so be it. It's who I am. And you know what, I'm not that bad. In fact, I've grown to like myself.

I do not like to be ignored. I repeat. I do not like to be ignored. And I guess since the I-don't-care attitude is a form of ignoring to me, it's just not in my makeup to do it. I know I shouldn't let my buttons be pushed that easlily. I guess I just like knowing where I stand and therefore, let people know where they do. Even when they could care less. I get that.

I'm me. I've changed for the better, for the most part, recently. But I guess this is something that is either going to take time or won't change. I'm like a giant human mood ring. You can just look at me and tell what I'm feeling most of the time. It could be worse. I know...it could be better too, but we can't all be alike and I stick to my theory that there are people out there who are comfortable (and even have fun with...which I admire to a degree) with 'the attitude' and pushing people's buttons. I do like a challenge, always have, so people like me - who have plenty of buttons to push - are filling the would-be void in the universe with our neon buttons. You're welcome. And I'll admit, sometimes it's fun having my buttons pushed. I love joking around. Othertimes, I just need to know I matter in this world (yes a very girl thing to say, right?!). Simple, no? Simple, yes.

You will always know where you stand with me. You will always have an ear or shoulder with me. If something is bothering me, chances are you will know **exactly** what it is without having to ask, because I'll spill it before you have the chance to question me! Okay...unless it's entirely too personal, then you will have no idea. :-) I mean really. Mind your own business. hahaha