Looking back on posts, it's clear I've been frustrated. To say the least.
In my defense (you knew that was coming), I've had some disappointments, by way of both circumstances and people in my life lately.
Anyone who knows me personally and knows about this blog knows this is how I vent. This is how I get things off my chest.
I've always said it's a choice to be happy and I do believe that.
I just neglected to take the steps necessary to be happy and unknowingly (and very naively) thought I could just jump from being disappointed to immediate happiness. Similar to a light switch.
That's not a realistic expectation.
And while I am happy with my life, I find I am still allowing people and circumstances to take that happiness away from me from time-to-time. It's like a pattern I fall back into. Part of me thinks I'd be mean to let the person(s) know what they are doing is not okay. In essence, I've confused being mean with taking up for myself. There's a huge difference.
I don't want to look back on my life with huge regrets. I know I'll have some, who wouldn't? But I want to be the best ME God wants me to be. And I know I would regret letting people step all over me because they think I won't do anything about it. That's not what I'd want my children to do.
It all comes down to self-confidence. Mine has always been low. It took a big hit a couple years ago and spread throughout many areas of my life like a wildfire in 80 mph wind. So now...now I'm building it back from the ground up.
First up...GET BACK IN SHAPE. How many times do I have to say I want to do this before I do it?!?! Get ready Ang...we're getting ready to start hitting each other again. Ahhhhhhhh...this is gonna be great.
Yes, I need a job first to pay for it. Title Boxing Club of Allen...open:open:open.
But then...BAM! It's gonna feel good to picture my 'problems' then knock the crap out of them!
Always remember and never forget: When you should grab something, grab it! Likewise, when you should let it go...let it go.
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