Maybe because if we dare to voice the fact we are feeling stretched thin, we are fearful all our chosen responsibilities will get thrown back in our face by someone. "Well, you wanted all of this...deal with it!". Yes I wanted it (well, most of it anyway), and still do want it. Can I just have a moment, please?
Even the little day-to-day things can add up. Especially when they demand attention simultaneously. And yes...these things are mostly what I chose to have in my life. This is not at all a complaint about those things and responsibilities I have. It's saying, decompression is in order. And I shouldn't feel guilty about that.
Laundry, play dates in the summer, camps to schedule, bills to pay, a house to pick up and clean, laundry to do (always), a sweet-loving dog I committed to taking care of forever who is dying and all that comes with that (both physically and emotionally, as well as listening to others give me their unsolicted opinions of how I'm doing it wrong..thanks), work, childcare, the yard...mowing, scooping doggie presents, laying down sod and trying to keep it alive, being a little terrified of the edger...shopping while trying to keep in budget, kids doctor appointments, clothes to purchase for their ever-growing bodies, meals to shop for and make...blah, blah, blah.
See? Every day things that almost everyone has. Every once and awhile I feel spread way too thin. Like this is a job for 10 people not one! On top of it, I'm grateful for all these responsibilities. In other words...I'm grateful to have a yard to take care of, a house to clean, kids to care for (most of all thankful for them), a budget to keep up with, dogs to love on...everything. All of it. It doesn't mean these aren't things I've chosen to have and now I'm regretting it. NOT AT ALL.
It means I'm allowed to have a day every once and awhile to feel overwhelmed with life. It means I shouldn't feel bad about that. It means I need to decompress and figure out several ways to do just that.
Bubble bath? Candles? Exercise? Yes to all. I need to incorporate some consistent type of decompression into my life on a daily basis.
I'll work on that. As soon as I'm done with the laundry. And vacuuming. See? I'll get there. Just watch me.
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