I swear the gray skies suck the seratonin right out of everyone. Me included. I've mentioned many times our attitude is a choice. I tell my kids almost every day how they are in control of their mood, be it good or bad. But even I have had a hard time with it lately, much to the chagrin of those around me, I'm sure.
I'm ready for the sun to come back. I'm about ready for summer, except for the realization my body is NOT ready for summer. Hence the poem I posted earlier this week about "What's it gonna take?". That was all directed at me, by the way and ON the subject of how disappointed I am with my lack of a workout routine.
Upon getting out of the shower the other day, I was 'graced' with the visual (thanks to our wall of mirrors in the bathroom) with just *how* out of shape I've gotten. I literally said to myself outloud, "Geez...what's it gonna take for you to workout?". What's it gonna take, indeed. And boom, I wrote about it. Yes, I wrote it. I didn't 'find' it as I said. I wasn't ready to hear, "Where'd you find that? It's stupid!" Especially since it was about me.
So I'm going to once again DECIDE to attack this mood. Sun or no sun. Snow or no snow. Out of shape body or...well, you see where this is going. My family, friends, strangers and me don't need it. I'm forcing it outta here.
I don't enjoy being grumpy, sad, disappointed, etc...so I'm done with it. Again. I'm no Pollyanna so I'm sure the mood will return again. And once again, I'll 'choose it away'. I know we aren't supposed to be up and happy all the time (robotic stepford wives, right?), but these things have a way of snowballing into other things that have absolutely nothing to do with what caused the mood in the first place. And unfortunately, I feel the need to talk about it (sorry). Yep, I'm a talker. I'm not, never have been, the quiet type. I'm working on that. :-)
Yes, I'm ready for the sun, warm weather, playing outside and...working out. Bender Ball...it's me and you.
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