Right off the bat, I will admit I'm not at all good at being still. So, the fact I'm even the slightest bit interested in meditating is enough to even make me grab my stomach in laughter. However, I'm not interested in it for the challenge of being still. At least not my body. I am interested in it to spend a little time alone. With me. With my thoughts. Focusing on positive energy. Focusing on the good. Talking with God. It's my own kind of "T-time".I have no mantra to recite. No guru. No ashram. Just my room here in the house. My dogs. Who are both snoring. Some light music in the background. The smell of roast cooking in the kitchen. And most importantly...my interest. And today...a goal for which I will focus all my positive thoughts and prayer. Tomorrow I may have more than one place to dissiminate them, but for today they are going to be sent to a single, solitary destination.
Leave it to me to pick today to start doing this. The same exact day I decided I needed to increase my water intake to be healthier. Need I say more? I digress...
I sincerely do have a peaked interest level in this and who am I not to inquire further given the possibility of it giving me more positive energy in my life? Not to mention how my chosen mood affects those who are forced to share my inner-most world! So instead of my usual 'why? why? why?' I'm asking myself why not? Why shouldn't I try this?
And it's not that I'm totally surrounded by negative thoughts and things. I just firmly believe there is more good than bad out there and I want to harness as much of the good vibes as possible. And I need a doorway opened up in my consciousness to let this flow in. I have faith it can and will happen. Is this the way for it to happen? Who knows... .
I read a definition of faith the other day that I completely adored. "Faith is a way of saying, 'Yes, I pre-accept the terms of the universe and I embrace in advance what I am presently incapable of understanding.' " I can't exactly pin-point what appealed to me so much about this definition, but something did. Of course, I love Martin Luther King Jr.'s definition also: "Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase." Both sum it up pretty well, which is ultimately...we are not in control of this boat. There's not a lot of reasoning in faith. Or else it wouldn't be - faith.
I know a lot of people focusing on various parts of their life right now. Seems everyone is stressed about a conundrum of circumstances. Education. Relationships. Finances. Housing. Health. Religion. Family.
The way I see it, my choice is to jump right in there with them, because there are things in my life that would definitely cause stress (and really, who doesn't have some?! This fact isn't lost on me.). OR I could choose what's important. What can't be replaced. And focus all the good I can imagine on those things. I'm not ignoring the 'stressful' things. I'm just not going to allow them to control my thoughts, actions, words...life. The one thing I am in contol of in this world is how I react to things. And while I haven't done a great job of that in my life, I am dedicated to changing that now. I'm a willing participant in my pursuit of having a good, well-balanced life.
It's okay. Laugh if you want. I appreciate this isn't for everyone. I realize some people are close-minded about such things. About lots of things. They aren't open to new ideas. And that's okay. You aren't my judge and jury. You are actually the type of people I'm trying to block out with my positive energy forcefield I'm creating. :::hahaha:::: Seriously though. Be gone.
With any luck, I'll be the one walking around unaffected by the fools and unimportant scenarios in this world that keep driving YOU crazy. Oops...sorry. That's not good chi, is it?! I need to work on this.
Ohmmmmmmmmm...
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