NEVER SAY NEVER. LIKE...EVER.

I've noticed something about myself over the course of the past six months or so. I haven't decided if it is a good thing or not, but I'm going with it regardless.

I am becoming a bit of a neophiliac.

It's a word. Look it up. And no...it's not a horrible disease.

We all know life is all about change. Our experiences tend to mold us into who we are, leading to the development of our values and beliefs. And while my character remains intact, my desire to push boundaries (my own, of course) has started to increase.

I have become more self-aware and not so afraid. That's right.

I have done things I never thought I would do. And...get this...have given myself permission to enjoy them.

While unable to pinpoint exactly why this newfound attitude has come about, I am able to identify a couple of locations. Mainly people. From trying new things to becoming a little more relaxed with who I am...it's been a huge jump out of my little box of a world.

The walls around me have come down a little more. I find I am not really caring about what people think as much as I used to. Figure if they have a problem with me or something I am doing, it is just that...their problem. Afterall, my life choices don't affect them. It is far more likely I don't cross near as many people's minds as I once thought I did. And that is a good thing.

Part of the reason for this change is due to a handful of people who have made a very welcome return to my life. I've known them each for 25-plus years, but have only stayed in touch with each very briefly. The "How are you doing?" message on Facebook, etc... was really the extent of our repertoire. I have become reaquainted with each at different times over the past couple years and each has made an awesome impact on me. I have enjoyed laughing, crying, reminiscing, and loving these people more than I ever thought possible.

A huge thank you to them for reminding me about true love and friendship. The ties that bind will never be broken between us and I am so thankful.

Always remember and never forget: If you never try, you'll never know.