Everyone has these days. The kind where it seems nothing goes right. Nothing makes you happy. You only seem to see the doom and gloom. You know...a pity party.
I'm very aware there is too much in this world...in my world...to be very thankful for. I know that.
But today (okay the last couple days) some people are just getting under my skin. And what makes me irritated about it is I know better. I know I'm smarter than to let certain things/people get to me. I know there are unreasonable people in this world. I know not everyone likes everyone. I just don't do well with ignorance.
But most of all, I'm down on myself. I'm very, very unhappy with myself for many reasons.
When my kiddos struggle with something and become way too critical of themselves, it breaks my heart. Why don't they see what I see? They are nit-picking on this one little things and they have about a trillion other things about themselves that are unique and wonderful.
Why can't we use that logic with ourselves?
All I see right now is a very out-of-shape, tired, over-worked person with a very limited wardrobe. Hair that is in desperate need of highlights. That's right...highlights. I went 'darker' for a more natural look and turns out it depresses the hell out of me. I look in the mirror and think, "Oh great...it's you again. You look tired. Go away. Now."
My days go like a lot of peoples so I won't even go into the schedule. But the majority of it is work. I've been told, many times, to take some time out of the day for me. That time should obviously be spent exercising. When will I learn?
Sometimes just writing it all down like this makes it more real and gets my wheels back on the tracks. Having friends to talk with is key. They crack me up because as it turns out, a lot of us are feeling the same way and together we laugh about it while alone, we beat ourselves up. Over and over.
So when I saw this appear on my Facebook page...
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