By nature, I've always been somewhat of a "planner". I didn't say I was organized so much as I plan ahead for things. I like to know what's next so I can prepare. Prepare things. Prepare items. Prepare my mind. You know...try and avoid being surprised.
Over the past few months, I've tried to loosen up a bit. Not be so by the book. Baby steps. I'm doing it so I can try and experience more in life and thus, so my kids can experience more. Things I've been afraid to do in the past or have been too nervous to try I am now taking second looks at.
Because of my nervous-nelly habits, my loved-ones have no-doubt missed out on some fun stuff. Obviously never my intention. I have always and will continue to want the best for my loved ones. My thought process was "everybody be safe and live long." I've been reminded that the book of our lives has already been written and we are to LIVE it. Obviously that doesn't mean be reckless, but try things, live life. So here I am at 42 years young and I'm still learning about living life. Learning to experience life in a different way and learning to dream.
The dreams we have for our life and what we want out of it can sometimes be challenging ones and maybe even a little scary. But sometimes you've gotta dream big and so you can experience life big. :::Again, baby steps.::: What's that quote? A journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step. Something like that. So true.
Marsha Norman says, "Dreams are illustrations from the book your soul is writing about you." Indeedy Marsha.
One dream that D has had for such a long time is to own a motorcycle. Something that used to scare the living daylights out of me now has me going, "Do it! You are going to have so much fun!" Am I still scared? Yes. I was never scared of how D would drive. He is extremely safe, does research on things like a mad-man and I know will be careful. It's the car drivers out there who get so close to motorcycle drivers.
Many months ago, we started talking about making it, and some other dreams, happen. And funny thing about dreams...they don't have to be yours to enjoy watching them come true. Just being around him while he reads all (and I mean ALL) the magazines, going to look at the bikes with him, talking about it...everything...just makes ME so happy to see him getting ready to realize one of his dreams. It's this point in time I want to kick myself for not encouraging it in the past because of my own fears something would happen to him. At the same time I feel blessed I now sincerely have a joyful heart watching him realize a dream and look forward to many more dreams come true.
Another dream going on is still in the infant stages and honestly, can't really say it's ever been a dream of mine so much as a "that would be so much fun" thing. Baby steppin' it all over the place here friends.
Stay tuned...(sorry...no hints)! Now go start to work on a dream of your own. If you can't think of one off the top of your head, go make a bucket list. What a great idea! Think I'll start one too. Looks like another blog post in the works! :)
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